more or less

i have a friend who is writing a book.  she is amazing, and when it is ready i will happily share it with you and shout her praises and unashamedly push her book.  but today i’m feeling a little less.  i have a friend who is writing a book; i have a friend who is adopting a baby; i have a friend who is traveling to uganda; i have a friend who’s training for a triathlon.  meanwhile i’ve got laundry piled up to my ears (have you noticed laundry is an ongoing problem for me- i hate it)  i made some really gross pumpkin muffins this morning for my children for breakfast.  i could surely use some makeup and a hairbrush about now; and honestly i just had to run outside because i could hear my kids screaming at each other while i was in the bathroom.  (ok so that’s a lie; i didn’t run.  i waited and listened to see if anyone was hurt.  upon deciphering that the voices were merely angry fighting boys and not injured children, i walked slowly outside to face the reality.  the reality which was, my older boys on the roof of the house chucking snowballs at my littles who were on the roof of the shed…. seriously.)

some days i feel less; less of a disciple, less of a wife, less of a mom.  maybe i’ve been struggling with this a lot lately; because i seem to be working it out in one form or another is several places.  we all feel less sometimes.  we can all look at others and wish we were more.

yesterday during women’s bible study, i was reminded of how God views me; of what God calls me.  a saint, anointed, His child, beloved, worthy, heir, sister, daughter… so today as i’m feeling less; i’m trying to remember that He is more.  that His words, His view, His plan is more; and He has given more to me.  in grasping more; i strive to be more.  not in a competitive, jealous, keeping-up kind of way.  i strive to live up to the words He has spoken over me.  to face my rowdy, snowball throwing boys with grace and peace.  i strive to entrench myself in His word so that His words will flow from my mouth.  i tackle the task He has given me with joy.

i will not be writing books anytime soon; but i will sit down and read to my children.  i will tell them stories of my youth, stories of their lives, and stories from my heart.  i will not be adopting a newborn, but i will love on my friend and encourage and pray for her as she mothers her baby.  i will hug my children- biological and adopted -and remember the days when their hands were so little and their cheeks so sweet.  there are no trips to africa planned for our family; but we have friends across the world whom i will pray for as they reach out to the lost and the hopeless.  i will show the love of Christ to my neighbors and my friends down the street and be His hands and feet right where i live.  i will most surely not be training for a triathlon or a marathon or even a 5k (i do not like participating in races), but i will choose health.  i will do T25 with my son who loves to “workout” and i will talk a walk outside today and enjoy the sunshine.

i am feeling less today, but i am consciously choosing to be more.



i gotta do something

a few weeks ago i was surfing the web and landed on the colorado waiting children list.  i know, not the place most people land while just looking around online.  i took a quick look at a the children who are currently in foster care hoping for an adoptive family; but i didn’t linger long because i couldn’t bear it.  then the hubs comes home, and i drop seriously not subtle hints about adoption, and he quickly reminds me that our family is full, and we can’t fit another person in the truck.

i’m an adoptive momma; and my heart will probably always cry out for the orphan, the hurting, hopeless, needy child.  but i can’t bring them all home.  certainly if the Lord really stirred up our hearts to a child in need; we would adopt again, but He hasn’t done that.  so how do i reconcile the draw that i have to adoption, the pain that i carry for children who need a “forever family”?  well i’ve been learning over the last few years that there are so many ways we can help; many ways we can be involved in caring for orphans without bringing them all into our home.

~pray- orphans, for families, for parents

~get involved with an organization like show HOPE that cares for orphans and offers adoption grants for families trying to adopt

~show love to kids that need it; so many children do not need a new home, but they need to be shown love.  when we go on missions trips our hearts cry out to the children we see living in poverty.  it’s easy to want to scoop them all up and bring them home, but that is not always what is best.  i can say with confidence that it is always best to share Christ’s love with them; their are kids around the world and just down the street who need to know the love of Jesus.

~help a family in the process of adoption.  our adoption was quick; i mean like crazy fast.  we learned about a 2 1/2 year old little boy who needed a home on a wednesday; we met him a few days later and brought him into our family the following friday.  so our wait time was about 10 days.  i’m not trying to brag.  i know that so many families wait long months and years to bring home their little boy or girl, and the wait can be grueling.  i have read so many stories and cried along with so many mommas longing for their little one to be home.

so be a friend to a family waiting: pray for them, take a meal, write a note, sit and cry together if that helps, help with fundraising, give a baby shower, give clothes or other necessities.  we had so many friends reach out to us and help us while we were preparing to bring our little guy home; of course we didn’t have much time to prepare.  friends came and helped us get his room ready, people gave us clothes, a bed, diapers, my mom made a quilt and curtains, friends brought me meals (since i was a little overwhelmed not having to cook dinner was a huge blessing), and God supplied the finances for our adoption through many gifts.  it was a huge blessing to our family to have so much support from friends and family.

~pray about getting involved in a local organization through foster care, a pregnancy center, or local adoption agency.  many organizations need volunteers.

adoption is on my heart this week; some dear friends of mine are in the beginning stages of the adoption process.  you can find jeanne schoch’s blog here.  so here’s a chance for you to help: this week only, i am selling valentines packages from my instashop @onthedoorpostsshop to help raise funds for their adoption.  valentines packages are only $15 but supplies are limited.


they are super cute, and a great gift for any women or little girl in your life!  please take a minute to give them a quick look.  and if you repost my instashop to your instagram, blog, or Facebook you will be entered to win a valentines package free.  (just leave me a comment to let me know that you reposted)

i am thankful that God has given my the opportunity to help in this small way.

james 1:27 “religion that is pure and undefiled before God, the Father, is this: to visit orphans and widows in their affliction…”